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10 April 2008 @ 12:57 pm
i realizeeeeeeeeeeeee
i have no dreams, if i can do something all day long it would be nothing. worshipping. thats my passion. 
which i dont really know HOW i can get make a job out of this.  

(((((((((i'm always really really good at saying things i regret)))))))))))))))))

but i have my cow and my bible and my mother and bffl and you know.. what else OH WHAT ELSEEEEEEEEEEEEE do i possibly neeeeeeeeed?

i am crazy.
ps i'm in spokane with my bffl. yesssssssssss
13 March 2008 @ 01:43 pm




09 March 2008 @ 04:50 pm
who has measured the oceans in the palm of his hand? who has used his hand to measure the SkY?
who has used a bowl to measure all the dust oftheEARTH?

scales to weigh the mountains!! 


(.oh and the hills.)

who has known the mind of the Lord? or been able to give him advice? who did he ask for help? 
who taught him the right way? who taught him knowledge? and showed him understanding? the nations are like a
BUCKET.. a very smalllllllll drop. they are no more than dust on his measuring scales. 

compared to the LORD all the nations are worth nothing.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((CAN  YOU COMPARE GOD TO ANYTHING?)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

surley you know. surely you've heard.. 

he stretches out the skies like a piece of cloth and spreads them out like a tent to sit (oh just rest, God!) 
God, the holy one says "can you compare me to anyone? is anyone equal to me? look up at the skies, who created all these stars?"
he leads out the army of heaven
and calls them by name.. 
because he is strong and powerful noneeeeeeeeee of them are MISSING.

surely you've heard.
29 February 2008 @ 05:01 am

i've been stranded at the dallas airport for 9 hours and now i only have 2 more to go...


airports are pretty creepy at 2 am. i felt like tom hanks!!!!

28 February 2008 @ 10:00 am
 k dont YOU worry i found my ipod.
i did, however, lock my niece in the car the other day and the cops came and it was a mess. 
26 February 2008 @ 10:39 pm
i lost my ipod.
05 December 2007 @ 11:39 pm

i am the chosen one.
i am baby kennadis godmother!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the reasons that i was picked were a bit shallow but !! I WILL TAKE THEM!!!


02 December 2007 @ 11:38 pm

so i'm at my sisters for the week in NC and kennadi has this little potty thing where when she sits down on it and pees the tiny toilet knows and starts rejoicing with this crazy fun happy music and its like a festival.
and i'm going to get one for myself.

10 November 2007 @ 09:03 pm
 you sometimes just get totally overwhelmed with inspiration and joy..? 
theres times where ..remember that quote by st francis saying "preach the gospel at all times, use words if necessary." 
and i think a chunk of christianity has lost the core of faith because of that. we're not called to be silent, we're not called to be boastful or loud or rude either i know, but we are called to live a life that reflects Christ's heart. so if we follow that peace.. if we just listen to that quietvoice.. and we speak up and have faith that in whatever conversation or circumstance we find ourselves in, he'll lead us. (do you understand this beauty?) ((((((matthew 10:19 ..."do not worry about what to say or how to say it, at that time you will be given what to say for it will not be you speaking but the spirit of your father working through you.."))))) 
so iits both. of course of course...  which i know i know we've all heard before but we cant be silent and things have to change and really, they have to change. we have to change.i see community slipping. its all about unity. its all about building eachother up. this is such an easy thing to miss and excuse with our "culture" how we're "busy" and its so "fast paced" but lets slow it down a bit. and lets not be boastful lets just be good people. lets have a few snack packs in our cars so when we see our brothers and sisters, (think about it. they're in this with you too. your brother and sister) on the street corner holding and sign and if you just look them in the eyes and  forget about your thoughts and judgements and just love them and feed them and do what you can.. just the smallest things. and it only triggers a thrist, a deep hunger for fighting injustice and just simply loving.. everyone. 
its just such a bigger picture than how we're brought up thinking. 

and i'm ready for it.. the other day my mind was in a bit of a mess, thinking about hillsong and how its going to work and why things arent going the way they're "supposed" to. he knows my "desires" and why arent things at peace and rest and smooth and then my motives for going to sydney, i started going over them.. and i heard this "you can do all that here." every single reason i want to go is at home only my hands and my feet are responsible and not just this authority of a school and a church. my heart is to commit every ounce i have to reflects Christ's heart and he can lead me anywhere.. 
its just devotion and obedience here. 
God i'm so in love.
and then i think about how my heart is still broken a bit and i'm still hoping/praying for a miracle and 4000$ to show up for school but then i remember in montana hitting my knees, cant count how many times, begging for God to change my heart and give my spirit peace because i wanted to commit the rest of my life to the man i was in love with but he knew that that life wasnt for me and i didnt. and i couldnt understand. and now i do. and its just these insane ways he protects.. 
dazzaling! :o) 
anyway, you know.. lets be the change. find inspiration and surround yourself in it. find passion. jusssssssst do it. get some fuel. 

.......thats my Jesus freak rant, yes. :o)
28 October 2007 @ 11:31 pm
i've been working myself to the "bone" ("bone" business means a lot. almost to death, i guess.) like 70 hour weeks. its not covering what i need for school and i dont know how i'm going to make it happen. at this point im at peace with either way. ive been looking at it as this spirtual bootcamp where i'd HAVE to get my life "together" (whats that mean?) when i'm called to live for Him fully today
all or nothing. 
so either way, these hands and feeeeeeeeeeeeeettttttttttttttt.... 
lilililiving to love Him.
its hard not to shout of his greatness and comfort and peace and neverendingeverlasting love and to be quiet when others are hurting. when did it become the right thing to do to keep your mouth shut about your faith and the truth? 
i miss my best friend.
i cant wait to give the update whats going on in my life in a year. a year!!!! 
i want a kitty, and i wish livejournal was fun like it used to be. i wish i didnt have to work 6am-11pm tomorrow and i love tacoma washington forever