you sometimes just get totally overwhelmed with inspiration and joy..?
theres times where ..remember that quote by st francis saying "preach the gospel at all times, use words if necessary."
and i think a chunk of christianity has lost the core of faith because of that. we're not called to be silent, we're not called to be boastful or loud or rude either i know, but we are called to live a life that reflects Christ's heart. so if we follow that peace.. if we just listen to that quietvoice.. and we speak up and have faith that in whatever conversation or circumstance we find ourselves in, he'll lead us. (do you understand this beauty?) ((((((matthew 10:19 ..."do not worry about what to say or how to say it, at that time you will be given what to say for it will not be you speaking but the spirit of your father working through you..")))))
so iits both. of course of course... which i know i know we've all heard before but we cant be silent and things have to change and really, they have to change. we have to change.i see community slipping. its all about unity. its all about building eachother up. this is such an easy thing to miss and excuse with our "culture" how we're "busy" and its so "fast paced" but lets slow it down a bit. and lets not be boastful lets just be good people. lets have a few snack packs in our cars so when we see our brothers and sisters, (think about it. they're in this with you too. your brother and sister) on the street corner holding and sign and if you just look them in the eyes and forget about your thoughts and judgements and just love them and feed them and do what you can.. just the smallest things. and it only triggers a thrist, a deep hunger for fighting injustice and just simply loving.. everyone.
its just such a bigger picture than how we're brought up thinking.
and i'm ready for it.. the other day my mind was in a bit of a mess, thinking about hillsong and how its going to work and why things arent going the way they're "supposed" to. he knows my "desires" and why arent things at peace and rest and smooth and then my motives for going to sydney, i started going over them.. and i heard this "you can do all that here." every single reason i want to go is at home only my hands and my feet are responsible and not just this authority of a school and a church. my heart is to commit every ounce i have to reflects Christ's heart and he can lead me anywhere..
its just devotion and obedience here.
God i'm so in love.
and then i think about how my heart is still broken a bit and i'm still hoping/praying for a miracle and 4000$ to show up for school but then i remember in montana hitting my knees, cant count how many times, begging for God to change my heart and give my spirit peace because i wanted to commit the rest of my life to the man i was in love with but he knew that that life wasnt for me and i didnt. and i couldnt understand. and now i do. and its just these insane ways he protects..
anyway, you know.. lets be the change. find inspiration and surround yourself in it. find passion. jusssssssst do it. get some fuel.
.......thats my Jesus freak rant, yes. :o)